I am in complete disbelief. This is me the whole day, Sitting here is disbelief. I stumbled upon an old email about my blog, I actually don't even remember what that email was about , even though it was just a few hours ago, I think that's why I am in disbelief about this blog page of mine.

I just don't know how in the life of me I managed to setup a blog page in 2011, but then when I look at the uploaded images it looks like I was doing alright, you know. Not the mess I have always seen my self as. Not the sad person who always greets back in the mirror. I briefly remember this girl. 

She was in a new town, had just gotten a job, was a student. And then she met that boy and almost lost her life. 

I am sorry. I am sorry for not pushing hard enough  to heal. I am sorry for introducing you to multiple was of escape. I am sorry for not teaching you to speak up for your self. I am sorry for not making you happy. I am sorry I still have not made you happy. 

Please seriously consider shadow work.

oh!!! by the way those last two imagies are not my art works

Motivation is literally the desire to do things.

You can influence your own levels of motivation and self-control.

So figure out what you want, power through the pain period, and start being who you want to be.

Seeking

From what i have gathered from my experiences on love life and everything in between: The more you want something the more you get tested on the Patience your may have or think you have ...........the more i seek love the more loves proves to me that its not that easy, it screams ( you said you wanted me now that you have me are you willing to make me happy by going against your will to make sure i remain yours forever, what about all the other times i have disappointed you?.... made you a fool for me, you are still here and you want more? your wish is my commend.) all i want is love peace and happiness and i say Yes i am willing to make you Happy,do what ever it takes to remain in your presence................. Am i a fool? for you any day!

PO BOX DESIGN

Dear  Design world

I miss you  for i am nothing with out you ( a bit of exaggeration)
shoot me for being sensitive to my art

The frustration of not being able to photoshop right now You might be
wondering why i have been so distant lately ad this is all i have to say for myself
My baby (laptop)is broken
and now i am in constant frustration of being invisible in your world.

Kind regard
I hope you have heard of me


PS  please return to i have to capture all these emotion.

Cliche me

 We are increasingly finding  it difficult to slow down our mental activities of our conscious mind with the pressure and the stress we obtain from the modern society.With all that goes on ( in and around me) all i want for myself this year , a wish list of some sort: PHYSIC abilities is that to much to as for? (thinking cap on) and yes i still wanna learn to play the guitar and make dream catcher or many, OK let me not lie that is not all that i want...... i want more, more then this. i just want MORE........ and  i am hoping time is on my side for i have noticed just how fast this year has gone by and there is so much i have promised myself. It has be a rather  lazy year although it has been dedicated to growth. I have taken time to become myself cliche as it may sound but i have learned the find a deeper understand of love life and everything else resulting in a  more consciously aware me.

Fashion Forward me

I have always had this weird vibe about high waisted pants, came up with reasons why a person like me should not be seen in such.....this weekend i went shopping with friends which was a lot of fun and my eyes where hoked on these pants, i just could not ignore them and so i tryed them on and that is the end result. so tel me what was wrong with me because personally i think i rock them or in them hahahahah!!!
THAT IS A REALLY BAD IMAGE  I MUST SAY.